There’s not been much change today in my face, although I did notice my left eye, while it won’t close by itself, I can almost close it when my right eye is closed. It’s those little things that I’ve been hoping for and clinging to as this seems to be a little more difficult than I thought it would be. Unfortunately, I had a rough start to my day. With things to do and errands to run, I found it very difficult getting out of bed. I pulled the covers over my head and groaned and moaned and finally just pushed myself out, and I’m glad I did. Today’s entire post is on how I’m trying to stay positive as I recover from Bell’s Palsy.
There would be no positive in my life without God. I know my God does not make mistakes and I know this is the case for my current struggle. I keep telling myself I want to come out from Bell’s Palsy different, more compassionate, a better person and a stronger believer. My positive power comes through God. If I did this on my own, I would have never got out of bed after I was diagnosed and I certainly wouldn’t have been able to make it into work and go out in the public feeling very uncomfortable with the way I look. It’s all God, all the time. I’ve asked Him to remove this burden from me and I’m trusting in Him as He guides me through the recovery process.
There are a couple of things that have really been helping me to stay positive. Now let me remind you, this attitude isn’t 100% all the time, but when I get down, these next couple of things I want to share with you, seem to help. First, I believe I will be healed. I believe God could heal me tomorrow if He wanted. And, if He doesn’t, I believe He will give me the strength to persevere. Second, when I wake up, feeling crummy with not a lot of noticeable change, I tell myself this is one day closer to recovery, one day closer to my full smile. Third, I pray with my husband, Brandon. He lays his hand on my face and asks God to heal me through his hand. If you’ve never tried this before, let me tell you, it’s amazing. A feeling of warmth, happiness and hope overcame me when Brandon first did it. And, now I’m always asking him, “Honey will you touch my face and pray with me?” It’s sort of “our thing.” Finally, this may seem strange to some of you, but I think it’s important to sometimes laugh at yourself. The picture above is of me and Brandon. He’s doing what I like to call the sympathy smile. It’s silly, I know, but for some reason, it just made me feel better to take a moment and laugh at myself with the man I love.
I want to close by sharing some bible verses I’ve discovered that have been really helpful the past couple of days. I think these verses can be used for so many different reasons but seem to be especially touching to me during this time of struggle. “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9-10) Amazing, right? His power is made perfect in my weakness. Our bond grows stronger when I rely on my God to get me through the tough times. I love that. And there’s this one…”testing of our faith develops perseverance which must finish it’s work so that we may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” (James 1:3-4) I really admire James’ words here. And as much as I would love to have a simple life with a lack of struggles, I know what happens to me today is only to bring me closer to my God and eternal life with Him. I hope these verses help inspire you as they did me. Please share your own Bible verses or quotes too, I would really enjoy reading them.
Reporter With Half A Smile 